Saturday, March 02, 2013
Always
The tip of the pen kissed the paper as I wrote the words A-K-T-F. I saw the glittering ink dry thanks to the air pushed to us. I closed the cap of fountain pen as I looked around the room. One side of the wall had an abstract painting hung on wall and on the other side , the curtains were dancing along the green walls , rhythmic to the air pushed by the electric fan. The room was big , but small for an Principal’s cabin. I looked at Jyo and she smiled. Ah, I missed that smile for almost two years now.
My
friend, Jyo returned to India after her Masters. Sure, we came to visit our old
college and met our lecturers and dear old non living friends. The packet of
Rasgullas clinched in her hand adding to the sound of the fan, the
unintentional source of noise in the room, which was otherwise silent.
We
were still waiting for then our HOD, now the principal of the college, who was
busy attending a phone call. I looked at my doodle –AKTF. We met all our
professors prior to this meet and surprisingly most of them remembered
us. Well, you see, I was not a very bright student and definitely not the one
to stick my nose in things adding to thin threads !! We had not-so-missing
canteen food for lunch and we walked through the least unfamiliar walls of
green to meet the last staff member.
He
was still on phone when my thoughts wandered around the lines of Disney’s
Tangled.
“Rapunzel: I've been looking out of a window for eighteen years, dreaming about what I might feel like when those lights rise in the sky. What if it's not everything I dreamed it would be?
Flynn Rider: It will be.
Rapunzel: And what if it is? What do I do then?
Flynn Rider: Well, that’s the good part I guess. You get to go find a new dream.”
It
been roughly three years that I am into teaching profession. And honestly, do I
actually enjoy this filed? Has it turned out the way I wanted? The way I
dreamed about? If it is, then what’s the next course on my table? Well, it
really did not turn the way as I hoped for it, but even today, I do enjoy the
forty minutes of lecture in class. The catch is-Do my students enjoy it as
well? But I love this field.
“Dumbledore: All this time?
Snape: Always.”
Yes
Dumbledore always enjoyed my profession!
So,
any regrets? I just wanted to be honest at least this once. I always pictured
myself with black board and chalk. And look! I am where I dreamed off. My dream
may not be interesting, like projecting to be dumb at first and after some
miracle Voila!! I turn on my extra smart head landing with excellent job like a
typical Tollywood movie. Silly me,I adore the beauty and satisfaction when
dreams come true. It may be small and perhaps unnoticed but the pleasure is
immense. And, that’s how I live. It’s just, may be little things always please
me. May be there was a time when I used to compare a lot. Now, I leant to let
go of things.
Finally my thoughts returned as Mr R Reddy spoke, “So, where are you guys now?”
We
spoke for almost an hour describing our lives and he suggesting us with, I mean
with, okay!!! I kind of dozed off and didn’t listen to rest of his worlds, just like the
old times, we never once listened to his classes as well!!
May be some things never change! Like Jyo’s smile, still the same confidence she boosted into me and still the same naughty stuff we had done all along. Mr. Naresh was at his best again. We quite love this guy!!. A good mentor but not a good professor!! Always holds a special place.
He
asked ,” How are your students?”
I
just smiled remembering the little caption jingling my thoughts from movie Pilla Zamindar
"Ramana: NCC a NSS a?
PJ: ATM lo pancard pette sanasilu."
I smiled. That’s how I have been facing the world. “They are good”, I replied.
I may not work hard but I Always Keep The Faith!
Faith in DBSK and JYJ reunion. Faith that always good happens to me. May be Jyo was right. May be some good might happens to me It’s just I need to wait. I always make sure to arrive early for any appointment as I hate waiting and I do not want my companion to suffer the same.
We called it a day and made a move for home . I smiled at Jyo. The smile she always asked me to treasure.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
White Geojismal
Well, everyone wears falsehood
in their lives, don’t they?? When you want to hide something or want not to
answer it, it’s then you speak the unwanted or unheard words or keep quiet
about it. Have I lied in my life or is this post some sort off a confession?? Read
to make out ^.^)
In the midst of me living my
life in pool of kpop, thinking my desktop monitor screen was the road to my
oppas and their yeonghwa n nolaeleul were my life. In such a life, having virtual
connections, not aware of reality , not spending my bucks on use less CD’s or
movies, but trusting sites like epdrama ,mysoujo ,allkpop, and youtube where I
can download cheap cost free pirated versions and satisfy my kpop hunger and
addiction.
May be there were times I thought what if they come
to India or have a concert here- well, it’s that’s a kkum-eul! Those were some
stupid unrealistic dreams. India has everything -population, economy and better
understanding people than South Korea. But, for few, very few these are not
enough. Like those terrorist fighting for so called “their” properties. Some
settled in other countries coz “their Mother Land” didn’t put right their ply
and for few, very few like me- wanted a change.
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| JJs Tweet pic in India |
No photographs or meetings, just a sign. Two days prior to these things, I desperately wanted to visit him. My stupid mah eum had nappeoun thoughts of meeting his. I was ready to go alone to Rajasthan, get his sign or meet him or just get a glimpse of his shadow. May be, one might think I am a despo fan girl. But either way-Sep 26th turned out to be a dream day for me.
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| Best Cook My Nampyeon |
If you see it from my students
eyes- Madam didn’t come to college coz she might have suffered from fever.
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If you are colleagues of mine-
You think, I am at Rajasthan desperately trying to meet JJ
If you are my best chingus- You
think I lay at home, taking a day break and sleeping peacefully.
If you are IKFG member- You
think I am at some lobby waiting for JJ or holding JJ's autograph
So, did I get to meet JJ?? Did I get his sign?? Let me resolve your ambiguity for now. I told you it was the day I realized the line between factuality and follies. The day when I get to know myself, it was the happiest day of my life.
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| JJ Sign |
Friday, September 21, 2012
Geu Nunmul
Appa tho mulla, omma
tho mulla, nan ulgo. Wae? Nathu mulla. Hagaien, nan pigonayotha.
Today, my day started
with five in the morning. It was one of those days, when I wake up early but
still be late. Yes, it happened on my fresher’s day, on my senior grad days,
and one of those cultural event days and got repeated today. Those days, when
you plan week in advance, prepare all the stuff you need for the D-day and end
with the ultimate-I am dead tired >__>
There was inspection
at our college today, I was to represent a staff member, and hence the
traditional wear. There are good and bad things about being traditional. One-
people recognize you or at least think of you as a faculty and two you are
comfortable with your attire. The bad part is the good part of being
comfortable and hence you cannot wear it every day! And the making takes a lot
of time to wear a saree.
I am dead tired
already as I type this bull. Yes, you read it right; these were one of those
days when I am trying to figure out my needs. With placements going around my
home, the return of the seulpeo days has called up. Sasil, nana nomu
haembukkada. Wae? Khunya, I watched Apink’s Reply
1997, domu chuwa!!!^^ It didn’t affect
my mood when whole of the inspection in my college screwed up, khundaeyo it
adds least to my interest.
If plot be said, it
starts off with celebrating the reunion days when couple of friends gathers for
a party. The story is told in bits, rewinding from past to present. As the
drama plays, we are slowly introduced to characters and their relationships.
But, the rating was very high for this drama? Wae? Coz even though it says all,
it hides all too. I mean the main character’s husband is not revealed until the
16th episode, so it keeps the viewers to guess who is the
nampheyoun? I loved this drama!!
Chincha!! Too much of
sweet is too bad, but my song joon ki oppa never fails to disappoint me. Yes,
nan saranghamidha!! Nice guy, the story has dark past, revenge and honest
people, where you are left with a choice to whom to hate. Well, they show each
side of the character and their point of views. So the viewers are left with an
awe to accept their choice.
After Sungkyunkwan Scandal, I thought Youchan was the only one who played his role best. Song Joon ki
was more of a supporting role with brains. When I watched him in Running
Man, throughout the series he had
Song-Song scandals and proven to be more ttogttoghae, but in Nice guy, he was Chincha Daebak!! maldo andwae
,chincharu!! Oppa meosja! =^0^=
As to why I ulgona in
taxi, was coz I was dripping wet in Bi , khurigu, nan himdurowatha and nomu
musowathaso, nana ulgoso. Miyane Yunjae oppa, uri Fighting!!
Mood: Tired -__-
Song: Suddenly by Kim
Bo Kyun
